So... for those of who don't know, I'm a male with a hormone imbalance. High estrogen, and it can be tax.
For example... In the Fall through Winter... I have a hormone spike, and it makes things very... very hard for me. Such as THOSE types of hormones as well as my emotional cognitive feelings.
So...if I seem particularly bitchy, or depressed? That is more than likely why.
On a Side note... I have been feeling extremely sad as a result. I dread dealing with such seasonal BS such as this.
And... some medical opinions... and documentation, basically say this is my version of a period. Which... makes me feel odd I guess?
Like, I know how a Women's is different, but holy shit.
Like, these unexplained emotions. Or how My apathy because concern. I feel weird even typing this... and I've noticed it is like this early... My friends say I'm like this at random too.
So... I guess I feel like I'm struggling by myself here...?
In short... I'm tired of it, just want to be cheerful and happy, and not this...
So... I've been talking to someone I love dearly, and I'm happy we spoke, but realizing I have this problem makes me almost want to cry now. I hate burdening people with how I feel... But I'm not one who likes pretending I'm always fine.
So... I apologize if I always seem everywhere....
Edit: It is also why there are many many times I don't even know what I want... So I always end up feeling confused. It's also why I cut my hair...
And to you, I love you very much and want us to stay united. ( You know who you are.)